Angel
25-08-2002, 12:24 PM
Just yesterday
I was with you
You shared my life
And I shared yours
Those old days
Those old nights
By the moonlight
The old pictures
In my mind
The memories of you and I
When you held my hand
And I felt you close to my heart
Then you drove away
You forgot to say good-bye
You crashed into a wall
And I’ll never see you again
The hospital corridors are all crowded
The doctors shouting
The nurses crying
The rooms are full
You’re no where to be seen
I see whiteness all around me
And smell death everywhere
I ran out of the place
And saw pictures of you
Saw your sweet smile
Your eyes
The way you looked at me
I wanted to scream
I went back home
Hiding my tears
I ran to my room
Hugged my pillow
And wanted to yell
I spilled my tears
And felt a shout surfacing deep inside
I swallowed it and cried
I whispered your name
But nothing came out
I saw you coming
You were covered in white
You stood beside me
And wiped my tears
I saw flashes of the old things
We used to do
Saw the old chairs
The old T.V…
The old songs we used to sing
The old books we once read
The old places we went to
I stumbled to my desk
I got out your letters
Your pictures
All your presents
I read them
I smelled them
I kissed them
I recalled your face
And reached out to touch it
But I could only touch the emptiness inside
I tried to hold you tight
To touch you
For the last time
But all I could hold were the ashes
Of you
That are left in my mind
I heard your voice
Calling my name
And I wished it were for real
I went to the hospital
Another time
I couldn’t see my way
I bumped into people
My hair was untidy
And my eyes were red
Full of tears
It seems like I just got out of cave…
Or a grave…
A nurse caught me
“Hey, girl, are you OK?”
I looked at her
But saw your face
I hugged her
And asked her to come back to me
She took me by the hand
“Tell me what is wrong”
I told her he died
In this hospital
And I want him back
She looked in the records
She looked in the rooms
But there was no sign of you
Or your name
She asked the doctors
The nurses
No one knew what to say
“Are you sure he died?”
“Yes, he left me last night
without saying good-bye
and he crashed into a wall
and died”
She looked at me
And cried
“It’s OK, honey
he might come back”
I screamed
I shouted
I told her you were dead
“He’s dead in your life
face it, he’s living there
somewhere
far away”
NO!!
He can’t…
He promised he’d stay forever
He promised he’d never leave
I still have his jacket
The one he placed on my shoulders
On that cold night
I still have his letters
His pictures
His things
I want him back
So bad…
I left
Pulling my dreams behind
Left them all shaking their heads
And telling me
“It’ll be alright”
How would they know?
You are gone
And though it hurts so badly
I convince myself you are dead
Because you are better off lifeless
Than living
With somebody else…
I was with you
You shared my life
And I shared yours
Those old days
Those old nights
By the moonlight
The old pictures
In my mind
The memories of you and I
When you held my hand
And I felt you close to my heart
Then you drove away
You forgot to say good-bye
You crashed into a wall
And I’ll never see you again
The hospital corridors are all crowded
The doctors shouting
The nurses crying
The rooms are full
You’re no where to be seen
I see whiteness all around me
And smell death everywhere
I ran out of the place
And saw pictures of you
Saw your sweet smile
Your eyes
The way you looked at me
I wanted to scream
I went back home
Hiding my tears
I ran to my room
Hugged my pillow
And wanted to yell
I spilled my tears
And felt a shout surfacing deep inside
I swallowed it and cried
I whispered your name
But nothing came out
I saw you coming
You were covered in white
You stood beside me
And wiped my tears
I saw flashes of the old things
We used to do
Saw the old chairs
The old T.V…
The old songs we used to sing
The old books we once read
The old places we went to
I stumbled to my desk
I got out your letters
Your pictures
All your presents
I read them
I smelled them
I kissed them
I recalled your face
And reached out to touch it
But I could only touch the emptiness inside
I tried to hold you tight
To touch you
For the last time
But all I could hold were the ashes
Of you
That are left in my mind
I heard your voice
Calling my name
And I wished it were for real
I went to the hospital
Another time
I couldn’t see my way
I bumped into people
My hair was untidy
And my eyes were red
Full of tears
It seems like I just got out of cave…
Or a grave…
A nurse caught me
“Hey, girl, are you OK?”
I looked at her
But saw your face
I hugged her
And asked her to come back to me
She took me by the hand
“Tell me what is wrong”
I told her he died
In this hospital
And I want him back
She looked in the records
She looked in the rooms
But there was no sign of you
Or your name
She asked the doctors
The nurses
No one knew what to say
“Are you sure he died?”
“Yes, he left me last night
without saying good-bye
and he crashed into a wall
and died”
She looked at me
And cried
“It’s OK, honey
he might come back”
I screamed
I shouted
I told her you were dead
“He’s dead in your life
face it, he’s living there
somewhere
far away”
NO!!
He can’t…
He promised he’d stay forever
He promised he’d never leave
I still have his jacket
The one he placed on my shoulders
On that cold night
I still have his letters
His pictures
His things
I want him back
So bad…
I left
Pulling my dreams behind
Left them all shaking their heads
And telling me
“It’ll be alright”
How would they know?
You are gone
And though it hurts so badly
I convince myself you are dead
Because you are better off lifeless
Than living
With somebody else…